The Fight part Six

The Fight part Six

As you already know, I have been dealing with mental disorders most of my life. Although I did not realize how much control it had on my life, it allowed me to hurt others, and cause pain, and suffering, to people who never deserved the bad discissions. I would make on a day-to-day basis. My kids suffered the most with my back-and-forth discissions. Not here to make, excuses for my discissions, it just played a big factor into my thinking process. This also played a big role in why all happened the way it did, family judging me, and giving me their options, and then people in high authority, in the church. They would tell me you are going to Hell, repent and turn from your sin, and so I would turn from what my heart felt was my true nature and where the love of self truly was, instead I hated myself so much, I would cause this pain to others. Never was it done vindictively, just the discission making process. God can take any situation turn it around to his glory, and until nine months ago, I had never laid it all down at the foot of the cross, when he woke me from my slumber nine months ago. No, he didn't say go and repent and come back he said come to me and lay it down. This is when he showed me his true plan for my life, by giving my mind clarity, by allowing my flesh, which is weak, to die and my spirit and soul to come alive in Christ, you see we are all law breakers, and we all deserve deaf, Jesus paid that price, grace and mercy covered us all. We only have to ask, and the Holy spirit will clean your heart of what needs cleaned. Now I know who I am to God and never again will I allow the world to take this from me. This in creditable love he has filled my heart with, allow God to show who he wants you to be. Here I am in a nutshell, a Warrior for God, who stands against prejudice of any kind, including race, creed, religion, or life choices. I stand for the oppressed, diverse, the needy and disabled, the law breakers. The biggest thing I am is a true child of God, the pure love of our Lord and Savior Jesus. See I have been a minister for over twenty years, this is the first time in my life I gave it all to him, and this is the first time, I have experienced the true love of God.

In Closing

Jesus died for all law breakers, the good, the bad, no matter where you are at come lay it at the foot of the cross, he can heal you from any affliction, just give it all to him and he will give you more then we deserve. Our most gracious Heavenly Father, I am a lawbreaker, I ask for you to come and rule my life as my Lord and Savior Jesus, I ask for your Grace and Mercy upon my life, and I thank you for your life, deaf, and resurrection, to show me the way, in Jesus precious name I pray Amen.